After three years in a place that has been absolutely unfamiliar, I found that many parts of my life fell into two categories, perception and reality. The recognition of this duality continues to challenge my thoughts, beliefs, ideologies, vises, talents and even relationships with others and myself. While growing up, I had a perception that my father was unconcerned with who I was as an individual and his constant opposition to my adolescent antics was suppressive. Several years later with a son of my own, I know the reality of his unwavering love and devotion to see me rise to my fullest potential. The results of these exchanges between my perceptions and realities vary. The attempt to resolve the war between these two forces often leaves me a victim of my own self-realization. To be honest with oneself should be done at one’s own risk. The perceptions I have carried and the realities I now know have shown me the best and the worst of who I am.
My current work examines these conflicting elements through a visual allegory. The imagery is historical, yet current, borrowed yet created, which demonstrates the state of flux and duality that represents my constant uncertainty. The contrasting imagery gives an account to the contrasting elements in my life regarding emotions, beliefs, actions and thoughts. The work explores the quarrels and intimacy that is between the perceptions I have and the realities I have faced. They are not bound to a sequential time line; rather it is a nostalgic and prophetic journey into the happenings, beliefs and relationships of my past, present and future.